Thursday, July 24, 2008

I make my swear le.. From now on ... I will not fall in love with anyone else.. Becuz I already know and have already found my love... Its you WT. =) Things have nv been so clear b4 ... I dun deserve wat modelling GF , or who ever so beautiful ... Becuz I know how much I weigh ... You are what I ever wanted... Unless you think that I dun suit you .. in my opinion .. I feel that we are an item... I suit you and you suit me ... =) Just give yourselves a chance ... I will prove to you that my love is really true .. =)
Kenpachi.87 Written on 7:29 AM

Monday, July 21, 2008

My birthday.

What a nice cake =)

Make a wish , Make a wish but dun burn my hair =P

Give it a blow man... =X

Do not mess around with the knife..

MOON .. Remind me of someone ... =)

Best friends

Finger Lickin' good..

Cannibalizing in progress... =X

Can you still recognise me ???

Clown Employed by the Emo club =)

Kenpachi.87 Written on 12:28 AM

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Sorry that I can't chat with you just now thru phone .. I tot that you were studying so jus send a sms to see if you are free to reply or not... Seeing so long you nv reply ... so i didn't want to disturb.. then went to play basketball at near the chalet...

Just hoping that you are doing fine =) love you .. <3
Kenpachi.87 Written on 12:13 PM

Friday, July 18, 2008

Today train alot of judo and ground fight technique ... OMG ... my chest hurts.. I think i Fall too much ... Hope its recover fast fast =) anyway After seeing your sms .. I actually dun noe how to reply.... But you asked mi why I like u so much ... I think i only can say... Its not that I like you ... But is how much that I love you ... Loving a person is to accept the person in whole ... taking the person's freedom , social friends into consideration .. Its true that friends are more important than relationship ... This issue I can understand.. Its all talking about trust... If a guy trust a girl ... What the girl says , guy should believe... Becuz in the 1st place , Y should the girl lie to you while she really love you ... So what the friends around her is all guys.... As long as her heart is always for you .... She is yours..


To wt:
I already seen your true self... and I already believe that you are a girl that a man should really feel safe even though you went out with guys.. You said that you are not a good gf... I strongly disagree... I know that during this period of time ... you were really stressed about your studies... I can understand how stressful it is to study in MDIS... Although I am not your bf.. But I oso wish that you really can do well for your studies..
1st: Studies
2nd:Family
3rd:Friends
4th:boyfriend

This is how you line up you life right ?? To everyone .. Its the same... So there nothing to feel bad about ... Same goes for guys..

1st: Career
2nd: Family (including wife)
3rd: Friends
4th: Own hobbies

If a guy with no stable career , How can the guy bring happiness and stable lifestyle for his family.. A relationship takes to person to maintain it.. If everything were to blame it on you ... then what the hell is he doing ??? Nothing ??? I m a person that encounter a "dan lian". I know how its feel.. At first I oso feel that everyone was my fault... but after some time.. I feel that ... Its no 1 fault... Its the memories that we should cherish ... throughout the whole 3 yrs of relationship .. I am the only 1 that trying to add colour into the picture... But actually its wasn't ... My ex did try to add on to it.. but everyone got their limit.. Everyone should noe the limit.. once you cross over the limit .. things gets nasty..


To love you was what wanted , To be with you was what I ever wished for... Now I won't stress you anymore... I will just stay here and wait for you .. becoz i think there nothing much more I can do.. whatever i do you might think is a nonsense... So in order not to make you hate me ... I just stay on .. Caring for you behind you ... trying to prevent you from hurting yourself... try to do what I can do .. Becuz this is what a person who really love you will do it ... Which guy will wan to stress out and force the girl he like ... I admit I am ... But I dun wan to do it ... Its no point to use force or stress the girl to be with you ... Its pointless... So what I successfully break the 2 of u up... then be my girlfriend but your heart isn't wiith me ... totally pointless... I will just wait..

As I said.. I believe that there are things that can be solved... A relationship need 2 person to work it out .. you can have my trust... =) and I hope u trust me too...


Love you ... =)
Kenpachi.87 Written on 10:10 AM

Thursday, July 17, 2008

haiz... I just feel that I am really a failure in love .... I love her ... but she jus wan to forget me... WT.. Can't you see that my love is really true for you ..? you really wan to see my digging out my heart to show you ?? No matter how hard , how complicated our journey going to be... Just becoz of this little obstacles and we cannot pass thru .. I think Im really a failure to you ...

Less than a month to WCG .. Im still here emo-ing ... haiz... What to do ... Love is the worst addiction that any human would have... Its more addictive than gambling , drugs and drink.... haiz... Will miracle happen ??? I hope there is ...
Kenpachi.87 Written on 8:38 AM

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

I just saw her.... OMG ... Thanks god... thanks you for giving mi this chance to see her.. =) ... but could it be the last time I going to see her??? =X I hope its won't be the last time ... Becoz i wan her to be mine .... =0 Anyway... shit man ... I did not ask you about your sick... Hope that you had recovered =) .. Anyway you sound ok le... So long never see you .... When the time i see you ... I was like .. Am I dreaming ... =0 I really love her that much ... OMG ....
Kenpachi.87 Written on 10:12 AM

Monday, July 14, 2008

Ytd went to Ubin ... Its was a great trip .. Never had a feeling for cycling for so long ... I shall post the picture at the next entry... =) anyway .. Had a short chat with her.. Omg .. So missed her la... Hearing her voice ... although make mi heartbroken.. becoz she fallen sick ... but having to hear her voice again... Im so happy again... I felt its like got the light ahead of me shining up again ... =)
Kenpachi.87 Written on 7:43 AM

Saturday, July 12, 2008

you should noe that I truely love you .. There is no way to deny it ... Who is in my heart growing a root.. I noe better than anyone .. Its wt.. So what she is the modeling type... But Its my heart that love you ... If I go for her but my heart is loving you .. Isn't Im the bastard.. I dun wan to be that.. and you sure dun wan mi to hurt her too ? at the same time I dun mean that I will wan to hurt u .. Jus that I believe that we can both work it out... even the gods is helping us ... the Rings is back ... Even gods is looking at us .. Please trust me... I will bring u happiness.. I won't make you sad ... I won't shout or raise my voice at you anymore... For what i have done in the past... I really veri regret... Sorry....
Kenpachi.87 Written on 8:25 AM

Friday, July 11, 2008

My decision has been made... My decision still remain the same... Becoz I jus truely like WT.. I have known a girl ... although I wasn't the 1 knowing her .. I admit I fall for her too ... Coz she is those modelling type.. She is pretty .... she like mi too .. But after a few days of reflecting ... I was thinking hard.. Why am I doing this .. There no way she can replace WT ... My heart oni got WT.. But in the end Im happy to noe this girl as a friend.. I did told her about my story... I Say I truely like WT only... She understand how I feel... Now I have cleared my doubt... Thanks guys for opening mi up and operation ... haha... I found my real decision .. I will work hard on it .. Anyway ... I dun noe which way or wat kind of magic... The rings came back to me.... I remember 16days ago.. I threw it away ... But its jus suddenly appear again at my letter box... I was like so Shocked... Is it someone who noe me.. I was like too shocked to believe.. Or is it that I shouldn't let go of WT?? OMG... Unexplainable..
Kenpachi.87 Written on 10:48 AM

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Just hope that days could get even better than this .. =) receiving her sms again is better than striking 4D ... hahahaha... misses her ttotallly... seeing your smile really make my days .... Really hope that I can make you smile and laugh every day... Study hard girl.. I misses you ... Great love... =)
Kenpachi.87 Written on 10:18 AM

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

"Happy Birthday to you" this words came out from you is like ...... something that I could not describe... My whole life felt light up again .... Although my birthday is over... But after you say it ... Im really happy ... =) No matter wat happen ... As long as the day im still alive.. I will be there standing out for you ... As long as you dun do anything silly.. I will be the happiest guy in the world.... =) I jus hope you should know Who will really understand u most bah ... =X Just hope you will do well for your test.. =) Good nite..
Kenpachi.87 Written on 9:29 AM

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

My birthday is over.... You did not turn up ... but after seeing your blog ... I could understand .... My birthday is not important ... But what I really care about is you .... I can understand that you wanted to get good grades... I keep telling myself you did not contact me is because you wanna concentrate on your studies.. I could totally understand that.. Even my parents say I shouldn't go disturb... =) So i just try to send you good nite sms .. Hope that won't disturb you much ... AND !! you dun anyhow think hor... Its not that you are not good ... you are not a bitch or slut or watever u called yourself... NO NO NO !!! that is surely a no... And I won't leave you .. I will stay here and wait for you ... If you really wan to slice mi , cut or chop with scars.. Just go ahead... I think its all the worth it.. Although I noe you are not toking about me.. but I willing to be the 1 that be by your side.... Good nite... and happy birthday to myself for the last time ... =)
Kenpachi.87 Written on 9:41 AM

Monday, July 7, 2008

A few more minutes to my 21th birthday.... But I dun feel happy at all ... Becuz you isn't by my side... haiz.... Real sad... Although my wish was made .. But just seem not possible to be fulfiled.. WT ..... Where are you .... Really miss you so much ... haiz...
Kenpachi.87 Written on 8:48 AM

Sunday, July 6, 2008

its the 13th days.... Still no news about wt... I m still waiting for you to come back.. I believe u will come back 1 day... I will use my pure heart to prove you that I really love you ... =) Nowadays is sick ... But dun noe why got the feeling of going out running through the whole nite.. Just like running like nobody business... run until i run out of breathe , no more energy then drop dead along the road... hahax...
Kenpachi.87 Written on 9:17 AM

Saturday, July 5, 2008

another days past.... 11th days.. Days without you are miserable... Im just like a body with soul .. Im doing things without thinking... even for driving.. Somehow unsuitable for driving?.. From the day we stop toking... Its jus I m not myself .... Just someday i think i might end up having accident or jus ended my life even i myself oso dun noe how i ended it ??? Im just like a blindman waiting for you to come back to pick me up ...
Kenpachi.87 Written on 3:35 AM

Friday, July 4, 2008

another day passed.... 10th days.. I decided not to go anywhere... just stay in singapore and wait for your call.... haiz... Fallen sick... but die die muz endure... I can go through this de ... Its a test for you and me ^^ ....
Kenpachi.87 Written on 6:28 AM

Thursday, July 3, 2008

the 9th days.... haiz.. still no response from you .. haiz... What to do .. I myself made a grave mistake.. I shouldn't do this to you ... I myself to blame.. If I can control myself abit more.. This wouldn't happen ... Why like that ... Im can't do anything but to blame myself oni ... everynite simply staying in front of the com waiting for you to online ... every day and nite ... holding my phone onto my hands .... even when Im sleeping... Simply just in my hand ... Hoping that you would reply me .... 5 more days to my birthday... The person that I really wish to see on my birthday is jus 1 person ... wenting .... just her oni .. having her to be on my bday... this could be the BEST birthday I ever had...But I think its jus impossible le... unless she really willing to forgive me...
Kenpachi.87 Written on 8:53 AM

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Today is the 8th days.... haiz... I m missing you so much... Recently was like a dead log.. no feeling , no emotions , ever since the day without you ... Really hope that you will come back... I can dun celebrate watever shit 21yrs old birthday ... All I wan is you to come back... Please come back ....
Kenpachi.87 Written on 9:03 AM

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Im really sorry for what I have done to you ... I really dun meant to raised my voice at you ... really sorry.. If there is anything that I can really make up for you .. I willing to do so .. Really sorry.. I really dun wan to lose you .. Baby please come back .... I really feel so bad... Please forgive me .... Please tell me that u will forgive me..

I sweared I will not raise my voice or scold you ever again... If I do so ... I will get knock down by car and die on the street straight away...

You have my life as a promise...
Kenpachi.87 Written on 3:29 AM