Monday, June 30, 2008

Finally got to talk to her awhile ... she still care for me..... as a friend... I am very happy le ... =) dun ask for too much... if not its jus getting worst... I realised that things have to go through slowly... Rushing things out just spoil everything.... What I should do now is just to care for you as a friend.. But I will still wait for you.. But I oso hope you would wait for mi after my NS too.. Really hope that we can have a everlasting relationship.... =)
Kenpachi.87 Written on 9:26 AM

Sunday, June 29, 2008

today is the last day of my uncle funeral.. I believe he went to find a better and carefree place... We should all bless him as well... its the 5th days we did not talk to each other... Seriously miss her... haiz... Really regret for what I did to her... I should not have done all this shit...


If you see this ... I didn't wanted this to end... but why did we become like that ??? rang wo men chong lai hao bu hao , zai yi ci wen nuan de yong bao...

I really dun wish to lose you ... I am feeling so lonely..

When I need you most.. You were not there.. I did not blame you ..

All I wanted is just you to come back ...

I threw away that things... That things should no exist in our life at all......
Kenpachi.87 Written on 8:15 AM

Thursday, June 26, 2008

today is the 4th day 11th uncle passed away... and also the 2nd day we stopped contacting each other... Its just kind of sad for me in both way... Its like losing both of the loves one... Just why did everything turn out this way??? haiz... She is not there when I needed someone to be there with me... Feeling so lonely.. Just wondering when will our cold war be over??? I really miss you so much .... But I cannot call you or sms you... because I really dun wan to lose you ... Sorry dear....
Kenpachi.87 Written on 6:49 PM

Its have really been a very long time since I blogged.... Its so hard to maintain a point between friendship and relationship.. A bit lesser care , Its become neglected and become friendship ... A bit more care, Its become relationship and become more complicated... I admit I m too selfish and over demanding... Im really sorry for what I have done... I shouldn't use the word "care" as an excuse anymore.. Although Im not using that as excuse... I really care for you ... But now that you are scare of me... What I really hope to do is wait for you to cool down and relax... until you wan to talk .. Then we shall talk this out .. I just really dun hope to lose you... I know its hard for you on your side... I shall not push you anymore le... I just want to be the guy that will give you warmth , care , Comfort and loads of loves...
Kenpachi.87 Written on 2:21 AM